Thinking It Over.

The last two posts have been well liked. Some kind people might even say they are funny. My grandmother Mary emailed me yesterday after reading the post about my ideal match lists, and her loving email humbled me. In her email, she asked me a lot of questions about my expectations and contributions to a marriage.

The kind of questions that made me glad that I am single and still learning about myself, faith, love and relationships.

So I've been thinking about it some more...

I will not always be the best wife. I expect that sometimes I will be dramatic, exhausting and argumentative. I am a sinner, and quite good at that. My prayer is that I could be a wife of noble character (Proverbs 31:10), something only possible because of grace. I will try to submit to my husband, because I hope that he will love me like Christ loved the church (Ephesians 5:22-28). That's a lot of love!

Moving to Virginia was a good lesson in how God's plan is better than mine. If I get to live in Kansas again, that's a good thing. A really good thing. But I am willing to move again for love because I want to be a partner in whatever our love story is and wherever it goes.

My grandmother's email closed with this, "I am sending more $2 bills. Use them wisely."

I'm going to print her email and attach a $2 bill. Then I'm going to put it in my Bible as part of my prayer that God will prepare me for His plan. And maybe someday I will give that $2 bill to someone special.